Cupcakesanddiamonds' Journals

I'm Far From Lonely and It's All That I've Got.

Can't stop listening to The Used. They've been my favourite band since 6th or 7th grade. so amazing. sounds cliche, but they probably helped save my life. I haven't blogged in forever!!! Got internet taken away on my laptop because i got my nose pierced a while ago and have just forgotten to ask for it back. haha

I hope everyone had a wonderful halloween. i know i did. I spent it with a couple close friends and my boyfriend. We went and hung out at someone's house party. super fun. there was this one girl dressed up as a french maid and her ass cheeks were hanging out. Jenna and i kept staring at her and pointing it out to people. so funny. There was some behemoth that kept hitting on my boyyyyy. so lame. I dressed up as my favourite animal a peacock!! We forgot to take pictures, but im sure there are some floating around somewhere...

I've been doing really well lately. Just had a huge scare, but all is well. I am loved by an amazing someone and i love him too. We've been talking about moving to New York to pursue modeling and acting. so hopefully all turns out well. fingers crossed!!!

I've been desperately searching for some flat over the knee boots that won't cost me an arm and a leg. If you know of any please let me know!!!

I NEED!!!!

I've come across an amazing website called www.fifi-lapin.blogspot.com

She is an adorable little bunny with the best fashion sense i've seen in a while and she wears all of the latest and greatest designs.

Inspired by Luella.

SO adorable. What do you guys think of these??

Xoxo

-J

So in love

With the concept of love.

Not sure if it's for me or if i'll ever find it. I sure do like the idea behind it though.

My birthday was on sunday.

Somewhat dissapointing. My morning was wonderful and bri took me to a really fancy amazing brunch. Then we fed the ducks and went and bought cigarettes and coffee. I don't really smoke but i thought i'd buy some for the hell of it. She didn't even ID me. :[

Then went out to dinner with the family. Grandparents were being very annoying. I wasn't in the best mood.

Got some lovely Betsey Johnson Jewelry from my parents and other stuff.

Most of my family forgot it was my birthday. so did some of my friends. oh well.

I have such a love hate relationship with love songs.

One of my best friends just inforned me that she now officially has a boyfried!!! sooo stoked for her!! It's about time. haha

Waiting for fall weather to finally set in. I'm aching for it to be cold.

I got an amazing 60's sequin shift dress. it's hot pink and amazing. Also a vintage sequined cream sleeveless zip up shirt/vest. I love shopping. It's my cure all and my coping mechanism. I need more shoes and a bigger closet.

Saw Inglorious Basterds for a third time today. so amazing. Seriously, if you haven't seen it yet go do it. I'm buying it as soon as it comes out on Bluray.

SUUUPER sore right now. Took a Circus class on monday. Circus meaning Lyra, trapeze, and silks. SO much fun. It's so different than anything else and everyone there is so nice and happy to teach you whatever you want to learn. I mostly did tricks on the trapeze. I wish i could be in Cirque De Soleil. It would be so amazing.

XOXO

-J

Accident Prone.

ahhh so hungry.

This is my first blog from my new MacBook Pro. I'm in love. So amazing. Expensive but worth every penny.

The internet is so addicting.

So is skype.

haha

anyways. i just decided that i need to stop spending so much money on clothes, and start spending it in shoes.

hahaha

horrible.

My birthday is in three days!!! But i have no clue what the hell i want to do for it. Cheesecake factory with the fam maybe? no clue. It's a big one too. hmmm. I've got time to think about it i guess. Also i have no clue what i want for my birthday. I have everything i want.

So i just asked for shoes, clothes, and Jewelry.

hahaha

It's been SOOOO damn hot these last couple days, and my house is sans air conditioning. Kill me.

SUPER excited for the fall fashions to come out. Fashion is a huge part of my life. The highlight of my day is usually getting dressed. I always change my outfits because i get excited about something. hahaha.

Some things i'm loving for fall right now are

Studs & Hardware:

Doc Martins:

Menswear Inspired Fashion:

Knee High Boots:

Dark Lipsticks:

Fringe:

Beanies:

Military Inspired Jackets:

Xoxo

Your Fashionista

-J

Brown Sugar & Butter

Just made the best creme of wheat. lots of brown sugar & butter.

theres nothing to eat in my house and it's annoying.

Finally saw inglorious basterds! You MUST see it! So amazing. one of the best movies that i've seen in a loooooong time.

Tomorrow i'm having coffe with my cousin, meeting with my agent & then i'm going shopping. hopefully getting my laptop...

It's so weird! my sister and all my friends started college today and i'm taking a year off so i'm stuck at home without a car and i feel very useless. I have so many errands i need to run but no way to get there! ahhhhh.

My birthday is in 12 days!!!!

I'm so stoked, but i have no idea what i want for my birthday or for what i want to do. hmmm.

Any ideas?

I'll probably just end up asking for shoes. hahaha

My agent had me dye my hair dark brown and i'm loving it! I think it suits me well. I'll miss being a blonde but oh well.

Test shoot on thursday.

My brain has been a bit fried this week. I accidently skipped a dose of my medication so it's thrown me off. It's getting better but it's been hard. Eventually i want to stop taking medication all together and go organic. We'll see.

Well that's all for now. If you have any suggestions on what i should do for my birthday let me know!!

xoxoxox

-J

Studs, sequins, and all things glitter.

Musicians express themselves through song, artists through art, well me. My medium of choice is fashion.

It's my creative outlet and my favourite part of the day is probably getting dressed.

I'm searching the internet for birthday present ideas. Mine's in 3 weeks and i can't think of anything i really want. I'll probably just end up asking for a bunch of shoes & clothes. typical.

I'm currently wearing a black zipper bodysuit, grey cutoff jean shorts, black studded belt, Dolce vita criss-cross heels, red lipstick, a sequined beret, and a thousand different silver bracelets.

i've been so obsessed with so many different songs and bands. currently it's been bright eyes. i forgot how much i love themmm. such amazing lyrics.

Been dealing with insomnia and staying up into the early hours of the morning. The other night i stayed up until 5:45am, then 4:30am, and last night i finally fell asleep at 2:30am. it sucks, but i feel like i can function better when i get less sleep. weird.

I think it's necessary to surround yourself with positive people and ones who love you. I've been weeding out some friends who aren't exactly up to par lately. Sorry if i can't make everyone happy and live up to their expectations. I'm only so mature, and i'm still growing. people are rediculous sometimes. i just don't get it. oh well. it's just how people are i guess. They need time to grow up too.

Super busy week. monday i shot with Spanish Moss Vintage, Thursday i drove up to LA and went to two castings, then had a late night with some friends, friday had a casting for charlotte russe and then went to lunch with my friend Alexx, thn dinner with my friend Joe, and charlotte's going away party.

was supposed to go up to hollywood tomorrow, but i just was informed that my friend's band's show got cancelled. oh well. :[

I need to buy a BUNCH of studs, and whatnot. I feel like studding everything.

not sure what today will bring, but i'm ready.

Au Revior

xoxoxo

-J

Glitter on the west streets.

Well hello there!

Feeling inspired so i thought that i'd write a bloggggggg.

Today i woke up and got dressed, then went to starbucks with my friend Jenni. Then went over to michael's house to get her back piece finished. It didn't end up getting finished, but he got one of the flowers done. She has a back piece with waves and lotus flowers floating in the water. So amazing!

If theres one thing that i can't stand is when people that are your friend suddenly drop you and then come back to you when it's convienient for them. I mean if someone needs space theI'll give them space. Especially if you don't know whether or not you've done something wrong or something to upset them. I'm most likely over reacting, but theres still that thought at the back of my mind.

On a positive note I should have my license by the end of september at the latest! I'm so excited. My parents traded in our old van and bought a new prius. At first i hated the look of it, but it's grown on me quite a bit. It's awesome because the gas mileage is amazing and to start the car you just put your foot on the break and push the start button! So high-tech but very interesting. I feel like everyone has them now. Or maybe since we just got one i'm finally noticing them more.

Went to dinner today with Jenni & old roomate Danielle. She's like my sister. But our waiter told me that i reminded him of his friend. For some reason this always happens to me. I had a feeling i knew who he was talking about. I don't know how to explain it. I ended up playing two games of tic-tac toe with him. The first round was a tie & i won the second one! hahaha I'm pretty sure he let me win. we ordered and then he came back and showed me a picture of his friend and it turns out that i know the girl! Her name is emily and she models with me. She's super gorgeous and super sweet. Small world.

Always trust your instincts.

Agent called me today and asked if i would be free to do a test shoot with some photographer whos name escapes my mind right now. But i'm shooting with him sometime next week. so stoked to have new pictures and to finally be doing more modeling. Practice makes perfect!

I'm so excited for fall to be here! so sick of the summer heat. Fall is my favourite season by far. But i wish i was going back to school shopping. haha oh well. It's bittersweet i guess. I need to start looking for a roomate and an apartment in santa monica soon. It's so expensive though!

34 more days until my birthday!!!! sooooo excited. I need to plan my party! It's going to be amazing.

It's so interesting how people's tastes change. I used to really like rap music and today i was listening to it with my friend in her car and i don't really like it now. Or maybe it's just the new stuff thats out. Some of the songs are so vulgar and offensive!!!

Current things i'm loving:

Spider Cardigan by Betsey Johnson

Unicorn Princess pumps by Jeffrey Campbell

Self explanitory

Marc Jacobs Heels

Sorry for the super long blog today.

I was just feeling inspired and i wanted to write. haha

Ciao,

xoxoxox

-J

Bulletproof.

Found so many new songs that i'm in love with.

My current favourites are:

You Stood me up by Benji Hughes

Bulletproof by La Roux

Heads will roll by The Yeah Yeah Yeahs

Steriods by Mr. Oizo

Nothing better by The Postal Service

1901 by Phoenix

And that's just some of them!

I'm in desperate need of a shopping trip and maybe a vacation to NY. I miss that place so much. I've only been there once but it feels like home to me. Kind of hard to explain, but you get the idea.

Love this picure so much! It's just fabulous.

Got my hair done on wednesday finally! I got it cut differently and added some baby pink around my fringe and the side of my face. I love it so much! It's nice to have a change from the typical blonde. I want to add some more colours to my hair but i have a feeling that my agent would kill me! haha oh well, we'll see.

I forgot how much i love Elton John. such good music.

I love rediscovering things that i haven't been into in a while.

I need to find these boots. so fabulous!

I've been doing a lot of soul searching lately and finally found a drastic change that i was looking for. I'm not going to say what it is because its not what it seems and you might get the wrong idea. But it's sort of like group therapy. Not really targeted towards me, but it's helping me realize a lot of things. I'm going tonight! So excited! I feel like that guy from fight club. I always forget his name even though i've read the book & seen the movie countless times. But after going to these meetings i feel like i can finally forgive and forget some people who have effected me negatively in my life and i can finally sleep.

I really want to plan a bonfire party or just some sort of party! But i really just want to eat all the smores.

hahaha

What are some of your favourite things to do during the summer??

xoxoxo

-J

ps. HAPPY BIRTHDAY to Audrey Kitching!

Take it easy baby

Currently listening to American Girl by Tom Petty & the Heartbreakers.

I'm diggin it.

Got the nails done today. Red sparkles and a yellow lightening bolt on my ring fingers is honour of harry potter.

Didn't get to see it for the midnight showing. All the tickets were sold out and i waited too long to get them. oh well.

going tomorrow for a matinee at 2:25pm. I hope it's good. It's my favourite book out of the series.

I've been stressing about school.

Not sure if i'm going to be able to afford living in Santa Monica. ughhhhhhhhh.

FML.

hahaha

I'll figure things out.

Sorry for being M.I.A. my sister fucked up the computer by downloading something onto it so this is the replacement one until my dad can fix our other one.

I've been a lot happier lately. A little lonely, but happy. i did a lot of thinking and worked a few things out with myself. I'm thinking of going to therapy for a bit to get over some stuff i don't know how to move past. Just memories from when i was younger. I'm not sure how to get past them and everyone could use a little help! i just need to find someone i can trust for the moment.

It's funny how horoscopes are always right! I always check mine and they are always correct!

Just went food shopping and stocked up on some num nums!

I'm going crazy not being able to update my ipod.

The orange cat is asleep on my printer at the moment.

Which is better, Cats or dogs? I like them both.

xoxo

-J

Truffles for breakfast.

I put them in the fridge and now im eating one.

so cold and soooo good. kind of hurting my teeth though. hmmmm.

i need to leave in a half an hour to do some job for unite eurotherapy products. not really sure what i'm supposed to be doing but i guess i'll find out.

I ditched the truffle for a peach. yummmmm. so good.

I think it's interesting how everything in your life can be going so well and all of a sudden you have a mini emotional breakdown out of nowhere. That's what happened to me last night. I really need to find someone i can confide in.

I need to get out more.

Pictures are up from the Spanish moss vintage shoot that i did.

they turned out so well!

such cute stuff!!

www.spanishmossvintage.com

go look!!!!

i'm wearing jeans, heels, and a black wifebeater right now. ew. so not me but thats what they asked me to come wearing.

i'm also sans make-up.

blahhhh

xoxo

Jess

p.s.

i'm on twitter. follow meeeee

www.twitter.com/jessikastine

Stay Golden.

wowwwww.

sorry for the lack of updates. i've been oh so busy.

Thursday was graduation. so surreal. i don't feel like i'm done. it just hasn't set in yet.

just got back from an early dinner with katie. today was her graduation! i'm so proud of her. love that girl. she's like a sister to me.

Shot with Spanish Moss Vintage yesterday. they have SUCH amazing clothes. i was in vintage heaven.

www.spanishmossvintage.com.

apparently she sells to everyone everywhere like Daisy Lowe, etc. super fun shoot.

even though i was dead tired. lack of sleep and lack of coffee. didn't get anything to eat except for some yummy hummus & chips. not to mention the coffee! yum. i was such an angry person. worked from 11-6 then got a burrito, went home and crashed.

horribly sleepless night.

I'm always tired though.

Went to epicentre on saturday. Jenni and i got Pat & oscars before the show. chatted a bit then went to see Sky Harbor & A shattered hope play. they did so well! talked to some people then left. We decided to see the hangover at the last minute. sooooooo funny!

test shooting with some hair product place either wednesday or thursday. i'm still waiting on details!

I'm loving all things vintage right now.

I want to get a pair of thigh high fringed boots. i wore a pair yesterday and fell in love.

I love my job because it sets me up for so many amazing opportunities to work with all these great inspiring people.

yesterdays shoot made me want to go shopping so badly. loved it.

Changed my hair a bit. instead of straight across bangs i changed it up with semi-angled blunt cut bangs. i LOVE them. i'm thinking of adding some extensions just for a change. i want something new.

off to do laundry and hopefully go to target!

What's your favourite movie?

xoxo.

Jessika.

p.s. can anybody find me somebody to love? Maybe i'll adopt a kitten. guys are just too much.